I haven’t written in a while, there was a death in the family that caused me to take a break from writing. I’m back now!
Lately, I have been hearing songs that inspire me and relate to things that are currently going on in my life and the lives of others closest to me. I heard the song “Jet Lag” by Simple Plan featuring Natasha Bedingfield and it made me think of how I fell for a silly boy (who will remain nameless).
I’m not going into specifics, but I fell hard for a good guy friend of mine. We both live far away from each other, as work and school pulled us in opposite directions. Despite the distance, we actually managed to stay in touch quite regularly since our different schedule make it so we are by chance online at the same time. Oh, the joys of technology; it makes the world so much smaller and makes you feel close to people that you are far away from. Talking to someone you like over the internet (email or chat) on a frequent or daily basis can help create a close bond between people. I spent a lot of time getting to know this guy, and I enjoy the fact that he is so close to me and yet so far.
I still get excited when I see him online and could talk to him for hours (and usually do :)). He still makes me laugh and smile from wherever he is in the world. Despite time zones and distance, we are always there for each other. I really value having him in my life.
So, yes, I fell hard for a good guy friend who lives far away from me and I won’t see for a long time. I know many people who are in similar situations and even though the two people would be a great couple with awesome connections, long-distance is not easy and usually does not work. I am not saying it will not work as many people have done it and are currently in them. Therefore, is the long distance even worth it since these relationships are bound to fail? I guess I just have to forget about him right now as a boyfriend as it would be way too complicated, even though he is seriously such an awesome guy.
The saying goes that when you find the “Right One”, the relationship will be easy. Therefore, I guess he is not “the one” since the connection is easy but the other important variables are not. However, I am at that point where it is strange to think of myself with someone else, as I compare other guys to him.
It is hard, though, because if I close the computer or hang up the phone, it is like he is not in my life. I miss the fun times we had together and cannot wait to see him again someday in person.